The Era of Invisibility

The era of youth has disappeared. I’ve become invisible.

How do I figure out who I am at this stage of my life? What do I offer that is not based upon physical beauty, youth and external “success”?

In the Mosh Pit I survived; often not recognizing present moments. I dissociated by living in the past, recreating my perceived value. My self-worth fabricated and validated by others: the heads turned when I walked into a bar, affirmations from men, the balance in my checkbook, the car I drove, the house I owned, the “things” my boys needed.  All determining my “success.”

I was only what others saw.

But Inside?

 I was suffering. I was hiding. I couldn’t get past the self-hatred. I just kept running. There were no gifts.

 I simply existed.

Exploring the unwrapping of my gifts creates quite an internal dilemma! Like accepting my awareness that I only allowed people to see my facade, letting my “success” manipulate people into believing I had something deeper to offer.

Holy shit, what do I have to offer now?

Can you resonate with any of this?

We can start to unwrap our gifts by asking ourselves:

•                Who am I?

•                What do I really love to do?

•                What brings me joy?

• What light can I shine in the darkness? 

Truthfully, I am continually growing with each discovery. Sometimes it’s painful. 

The payoff is more joy as I stay in the present moments of my life.

We can be seen as we truly are.

Join me in this new era of discovery, self-acceptance, and self-love. Let’s choose to thrive.